This was not how I wanted to

To welcome new bloggers to Blaugust. I had originally planned on sticking to the guide for the month of August and just give a little bit of information and some helpful tips about being online, being a blogger, etc. Instead I took you guys on my journey and gave you an in-depth look into my past, and my mental health. Instead I turned my blaugust into a journey of mental health and offering a shoulder to those that need it. I’m not entirely sure why I picked this time to open up like that and put my story out there. I’m not regretting that I did just that. I have had a few people reach out privately thanking me for showing my strength in sharing my story. I didn’t expect to be thanked for showing that side of humanity. I didn’t think when I started writing out my journey. I didn’t think about the outcome it would get. I just didn’t think in general about an overall reaction. I just wanted to bring more awareness that you really never know the kind of personal hell someone may be going through or what they have went through to change their perspective on life. For me, I became less trusting in other humans, I became something else entirely from the person I wanted to be. I went through a change in my life that turned it upside down and made me think this was normal. It wasn’t until I saw others that had something I knew I never would have in life. A stable environment that would be good for me. I thought my home life was normal. It wasn’t until after I became an adult that I learned I was a product of a broken home.

No it is not regret

I do not regret sharing my story. It needs to be out there. Someone needs to step up, and show that a person doesn’t have to be a victim of abuse in any form. They can become a survivor, and try to live a productive life. Granted I don’t have a career, or a degree , or any further education because anxiety over took my love for education. So I stay at home, keep Blade’s checking account in line along with my own. Maintain Raven’s health, and try to keep all 3 of us together and keep our sanity at calm levels.