Nothing like a drive!!
Gaming updates for me
I know it’s been quite a while since I’ve written a blog post, but that is because I didn’t have a lot of stuff to bring into a blog, so I didn’t feel like writing anything. Course I’ve been gaming a lot recently and I just did not want to blog about anything. My last post was talking about how 7 days to die was leaving early access soon and coming out with a version 1.0 in June. Which I’m also still skeptical about it coming out of early access. In other news ETS 2 is running an event right now, and of course ATS released a new state and they are running an event side by side with ETS 2 as well. So right now I’m in between Cruising Switzerland, and Cruising Nebraska. Both which won’t end until July which I’m really happy about because then I don’t have to bust my ass so to speak to get both events done within a short time frame, because I have a hard time sticking to just one event at a time. Plus I’ve had to restart my ETS 2 profile yet again because of a mod I used that I didn’t like because it jumped me up way to far. So I reverted to starting a new one, but that profile is on hold at the moment because I am using my very 1st profile to do the event for ETS 2. Over on the ATS side though I am using the profile I started a YouTube journey with when I decided to start this series.
Let’s cruise around Nebraska!!
Cruising Nebraska
Since the 16th of May Nebraska has been out, and I have been having fun playing this DLC the most. I’m really enjoying the scenery as I have went through a few towns in Nebraska back in the early 2000’s. I really enjoy doing things like this, and I’m enjoying traveling around the various states, and I’m starting to enjoy traveling in ETS2 as well, but this section is about Nebraska, and how I’m enjoying it. I did have to go and remove a mod because it made the city, and highway speed limits like it was over in ETS 2 and that was my problem. The mod I had to turn off for the time being was about realistic fuel prices. So until it gets updated I will keep that mod off for the time being. Even though so many others have suggested having a clean profile with no mods running when they release a new DLC , but I have a problem with the derpy AI drivers whether be in Rigs or any other vehicle as well. I am still using my PXN V900 Wheel and I’m really enjoying it a lot more since I’ve tweaked all the settings in it, and when I pull it out from under my desk I have a USB switch to turn off my Xbox One controller, and another switch to turn on the Wheel as I don’t need them conflicting with each other in both games. That has been my gaming updates for myself recently. I’ve been doing a lot of other things, but wanted to focus on driving in this post.
A sometimes important question!!
My Mental Health and Health Journey so far
As of late I’ve been dealing with both over all physical health, and mental health issues recently. Back in October of last year I was told I am a Type 2 Diabetic, which was a shocker to me, but it is what it is. We started a series of medications trying to bring my A1C down, and it hasn’t really budge from a really high number. It was 11.5 which went down to 10.5, then shot right back up. So pills weren’t helping, and now I’m on insulin daily, and it’s bringing my blood sugar down and I’m happy about it. Blade is also walking this path with me, he will stop eating when I do, and has become quite accustom to eating a little healthier too. Which was a shocker to me, but I’m glad to know I’m not on this path alone. My mother on the other hand, well she decided last week to try and make a game of who has the lower blood sugar, which I told her this wasn’t a game, but to her it is though. So that put me and Blade into agreement that we really need to remove ourselves from this situation. That isn’t what set my mental health into a spiral at the moment. A few weeks back, she proceeded to tell me she was talking to a friend of hers on the phone and said that I shouldn’t have been a mother to human children, only dogs, and that I wasn’t that a good mother. Which floored me because this is the woman that brought me into this world! , suppose to love me, suppose to protect me, and instead only hurts me more and more each time she can. Then after saying that to me, she also said she regretted having me, which again crushed me totally. I have a parent that regrets me?! Lucky enough I called my dad, and he told me that he’s never regretted me. He’s just regretted putting me with my mother. I told him not too, because it’s important now that I know how she truly feels about me, but he even said it should have never been thought of, or said out loud. I agree with him, but she is who she is. A hurtful person, and expects me to just forgive and forget. I have forgiven her, but I will not forget her saying that to me. It’s something I never would have dreamed of saying to my own daughters, I don’t regret having them, I just regret that the system set out to take them away from us for good. So that is what I’ve been dealing with since last month, and I can’t stop hearing those words in my mind and it hurts me to know that I have a parent like this. I wish this pain on no one, but again I will endure, and I will become stronger from it. Blade has went off on her numerous times because it reflects back on him, and her basically saying that he shouldn’t have been their father either. So good for him, and because of that, he’s become more protective of me. So that is what has been going on for the last month or so.