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Todays post was written on August 7, and it’s going to be a shorter post because I am wiped out. I had to get up and stay up this morning due to having blood work to check to see if my A1C is lower now then it has been for the past few times I’ve had it done. Typically after I help get Blade up and out the door for work, I go back to bed, but this morning I couldn’t as my appointment was set for 10:20am so I stayed up. It’s the same with gaming which I doubt I’ll get any done tonight, but I did do a few videos for Euro Truck Simulator 2. Even right now as I’m sitting here typing this post out, I keep dazing out, eyes closing because I’m tired. So yeah after this post I will be going to bed early tonight since I really only slept I believe 4-5 hours last night. I do suffer from insomnia from time to time, and it’ll leave me being up off and on all night long sometimes. So yeah since I was diagnosed as a Type 2 Diabetic back in October of last year, so I’ve been dealing with that all this time now. Blade is my main supportive line in this because I don’t trust my mother with help on this because she’s done to much damage to me. He’s also my sanity when my world starts to turn upside down because of hurtful words she says. Him and Raven are all I really have. I mean don’t get me wrong my father is still around, but he’s always been hands off and it’s hard to talk with him about things because most of our conversations are only 5-10 minutes. I’ll never get longer than that, and I’ve just come to learn to live with it all. Guess that is why I tend to bottle everything up, and stir over it for years on end.
Gaming and Music have been my saving grace for the last 10 years now because when people fail me. That doesn’t. Raven doesn’t. Blade does and doesn’t. None the less this post is not going to be super long, but yet I need to make sure a post goes out, as I do set a goal for myself to do 31+ posts each year for blaugust. It’s just my own personal release when I don’t have anyone to talk too because Blade is at work, and well I don’t trust her. So my refuge until he’s home from work, and then again I don’t even want to bother him with my problems too, so again it’s back to the video games, or something else to occupy my mind. Oh well I’m going to end this post with just a random rambling of an insane woman’s mind!
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