5 Facts about me #Blaugust2024

5 Facts about me

Some Interesting Facts about me

Forgive me right now if I screw this up, but I don’t typically do posts like me, but I was bored, and went through the writing prompts and thought this one should be interesting enough even though I doubt I’m interesting at all. So here is goes.

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1.) Horror Movie Lover
I love horror movies. My first horror movie, which people did think it was at the time was Gremlins, I was going on 7 years old, and my parents were trying to help me out as I was sick with bronchitis and double ear infection along with strep throat. Yeah I was a sick child, it was also a different time for me as well because that summer, I was molested by our neighbor. It was the beginning of changing my entire view on life, and realizing that the monsters in my closet, and under my bed weren’t real, but the ones next door were very much real and they were people.

a bunch of skulls that are on a rail

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2.) Love reading and watching documentaries on serial killers 

I love reading and watching documentaries on serial killers, anything with a dark twisted mind. Now the reason I don’t let many people know is why I’m so fascinated with this is because it would not be hard for me to snap, and become one, but the one thing that stops me is the one of the perquisites that most and or if not all killers have is they started with abusing animals, now if you do know anything about me. You’ll know I’m an avid dog lover, while I love all animals, Dogs are my passion in life. They remind me that they are furry children that require love, and so forth. Yet my mind still wonders what I’m so fascinated with knowing how their minds work.

coffee cup, coffee, heartbeat

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3.) Introvert and Coffee Lover

Yup you read that right. I’m an avid coffee lover, and I’m an introvert. I do not like being around people at all. I can tolerate some, and there is 1 that I really don’t mind having around and that is Blade, but overall I do not want to be around people at all. I don’t even like going into the stores anymore as my anxiety disorder puts me in fight or flight mode all the time. I have a non descriptive generalized anxiety disorder. So I do make the most out of my Amazon Prime, and my Walmart+ that I’m currently subscribed too. Most developed this during the pandemic, where I’ve had this for the last 20+ years now. Raven is my saving grace when it comes to helping me with my anxiety now. She makes it so easy for me to calm down and get myself recentered.

ai generated, raven, black

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4.) My favorite bird is also a mini story | poem

Raven is not only my dogs name, but it’s also my favorite bird, and my favorite mini story | poem by Edgar Allen Poe. For years I’ve had a fascination with Ravens, and Crows because they are truly interesting to watch, and knowing that these birds mate for life, especially Ravens. They mate one partner for life. There is also the names of them. There is a Murder of Crows for a flock of Crows, and for Ravens in flocks which is extremely rare it’s called Unkindness and Conspiracy. They also do not like change, but yet they do eventually accept it. Plus I’ve had the chance to help care for a baby raven, and it just instantly impressed me with how intelligent they are, and how fast they can learn things. When this bird wanted attention he wasn’t shy about asking for it too. Where this Raven is today? Well we had to release him, but he’s apart of a bird sanctuary and is thriving and has a mate now. I do keep in touch with the owners, and they told me that he is a proud papa to a small flock of Ravens. They allowed me to name him when he was small, and I named him Poe, and they instantly understood why I did.

equalizer, beat, music

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5.) I love music that has meaning

I have always loved music. For as far back as I can remember, when I was growing up I didn’t care about TV, but yet if a song came on the radio that I liked I’d always ask for it to be turned up. At a young age my parents knew I had a drawing to music that has a strong vocal presence over the musicians playing whatever instrument. For me it’s always been about the lyrics that I could feel over the notes being played. Don’t get me wrong the instruments are very important too for me in the way they bring the music together with the lyrics, but the lyrics speak to me on a level that many can not understand. I’ve always had a firm belief that if you send someone a song you like for them to listen too, even if they don’t end up liking the song in the end. It will give them an insight on the type of person you are, and the song speaks of who you are. It’s a very personal and intimate way to share something about yourself with another person without it having a double meaning that can give confusion about it. At the end of this post I’ll have the video from Youtube with the song in it, and under that the lyrics for the entire song. This is a song that I listen to a lot, and it’s one I feel close too. So I hope you give it a partial listen with an open mind. Enjoy.

Genocide by RA

Could it be that it didn’t happen
Could it be that I wasn’t there
I can swear that my eyes are open
But there’s nothing at which to stareI remember the people dying
Staring blankly into the sky
Unaffected and undistracted
Redirected to pass them byCold as steel
Underneath my broken skin I’m bleeding
Forced to feel
Devastation murder genocide

My reflection sometimes reminds me
In their image I was born
Technically I’m enhanced they tell me
From their minds my existence torn

They don’t know all the hate I’m feeling
They don’t see how it breeds inside
I’m afraid of the walls around me
I’m afraid but I cannot hide

Cold as steel
Underneath my broken skin I’m bleeding
Forced to feel
Devastation murder genocide

There’s a reason that I met you
It’s to show me how to die
Simplify my wrong connection
Disconnect me where I lie
There is conflict all around us
There is conflict in my soul
Put an end to what’s beginning
To make me want to play my role

Cold as steel, underneath my broken skin
I’m bleeding, forced to feel
While I live through programmed suicide
Can’t ask why
Can’t remember when I started caring
Do or die
Devastation murder genocide


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A woman who enjoys playing video games, and will blog about my experiences, but also record video game play for my YouTube channel.
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